Intentions: 30 days of meditation

Creating change through meditation

I began a meditation challenge this past month, it was centered around a book called: Rituals for Transformation: 108 day journey to your sacred life. Each day had an intention and a lesson for learning. It helped open my eyes to the variety of things that we beat ourselves up over throughout our lives, and the deep wounds that still reside within the subconscious.  It was time to forgive myself and others for the wounds that are still present within me, and I did not forgive myself for others, but for myself. In each reflection of meditation I was completely opened and answered honestly.

Day 1: I am grateful for my body

Sometimes our bodies look much different than we would like, it may not feel as energetic or comfortable as we would like either. It may not perform as well as we would like, or perhaps in great pain or dealing with a severe illness. This body that you have right now deserves your gratitude, it enables you to experience all the life around you, it is essentially your vessel to experience the outer reality of life through the senses. We see, hear, taste, touch and feel our way through life absorbing tremendous beauty from the senses (the sound of birds, the taste of ripe mangoes, the sight of waterfalls cascading, the touch of a loved one, and so much more).

It is important to reflect on how much our bodies actually do for us everyday even if we do have limitations. My body is strong powerful and beautiful. Some days it can be difficult when the body is stiff and tense from over work or simply stress. But I am entirely grateful for the body I have been given. It is small, but it is strong.

Day 2: I am NOT my body

You have judged and been judged for your body. You have cleansed it, You have abused it, you have dressed it, primped it, and even perhaps tattooed it. Your body has shaped the way that you experience life and at times perhaps even seemed as though it were your whole identity- but it is not. Your body does not define what you can experience; it cannot limit your capacity for joy or peace. It does not dictate your purpose, values or what you intend to do in this life. What you are is so much more than the vehicle that you utilize.

I reflected today on how my ideas about who I am because of my body limit my happiness and peace. The reason being is because it often times does not hold up to the expectations that I place upon it. We cannot expect to always have the perfect balance in tree pose, or sit in meditation without pain. This causes suffering. When we choose to simply be with whatever is already there, we find a sense of contentment.

Day 3: My body is a vehicle for spirit to experience life.

You are so much more than your body and your mind. You are more than your personality or your circumstances. You have been given this life this role to fulfill this path to follow but you do not have to be confined to it. You will begin to experience a greater clarity, that you are loved, and you have nothing to fear.

For me today’s meditation is about connecting to that inner lake of light that we can retreat to at anytime. This inner lake of light can fill you up if that is what you need. Every time that I meditate I feel like I connect to that inner lake and re infuse myself with the energy I need to accomplish my path and my goals for the betterment of myself and others.

Day 4: I notice the ways in which I withhold approval from my body.
This is a reflection of how it feels both body and mind when my body does not look, feel or perform the way I believe it should. Sometimes we get into patterns of judgement, punishment or hating it because it is not exactly the way we want it to be in one way or another.

For me the challenge was not criticizing my body for the way it looks and this really is depriving my body of the love and acceptance it deserves. When I look at myself in the mirror the critical areas of my body are mostly belly/mid section. Even though my body is strong in its small frame, there are still areas to which I would like to improve. Particularly core strength and arm strength. It takes time and effort to accomplish these goals. The more I work on it the more I see my inner critic show up less and less. I have to remember that although it may not be at the level to which I wish it was, it is important to still love and accept the way it is, because it could always be worse.

Day 5: My body seems to threaten me with its vulnerability

We develop limiting beliefs when we think all life revolves around our body. These beliefs can actually foster an inner war between body and mind. Perceive the nature of beliefs you have with your body. Rise above conflict and choose peace instead!

I do not believe that life ends with this body, watching a recent documentary science has proven that consciousness lives on after physical death even if it is just for a little while. In this way, my body is vulnerable to so many things, my consciousness however I can control what I let in and out of that filter. When we come to realizations like this one, we feel much more powerful, much less vulnerable to our circumstances especially when we know we can ultimately change those circumstances.

Day 6: I forgive my body
How would you feel if you were able to let go and relinquish all criticisms you hold against your body? How does it feel to accept your body just as it is? All of this is possible when you are able to forgive your body and notice the expressions of resistance to your body.

This morning I spent time releasing layer after layer of judgement, to reveal the peace and gratitude that are our more natural states, and as much as I can I tried to throughout the day release and forgive my body as often as possible. I think this creates a more beautiful, more close connection between the body and mind.

Day 7: I love my body
Continue to forgive your body and express gratitude for your body. Love your body fully and consider the sweet sense of ease you could have as a relationship with your own body. How much lighter do you feel when judgement and conflict are not present? We have a tendency to feel more open and relaxed when there is no judgement and conflict. Today’s meditation is about deepening the connection to each area of the body, entering those areas with complete consciousness, loving it completely and unconditionally.
During todays meditation I went one by one to each area of the body starting from the toes and offering it my complete awareness, and sending it love. Then continuing that awareness and love up through the legs all the way to the crown of the head. It was deeper than just skin, muscle and bones. I made it deeper extending into the various systems of the body as well as the organs (nervous, circulatory, respiratory, digestive, reproductive, excretory). I noticed through meditation that certain areas of my body tingled through the love and approval. There were areas of my body I had been neglecting or judging for a long time. My body felt energized and awakened after this meditation and I chose to share it with my students today.

Day 8 : I honor and care for my body
There is a wild difference between caring for your body our of fear and caring for your body out of love. Lavish your body with care, as if it were your child. When you realize how much of a gift this body is, you become inspired to care for it. This body is your vehicle that opens up opportunities to explore and adventure in life.

It is so important to fully care for each part of our body. My wrist today was feeling sore and overworked. I took the time today to do the opposite of flexion. In yoga we spend a lot of time doing chatturunga, or being on our hands. Our wrists usually in flexion during yoga poses, I spent the time today to work the opposite – work extension to help strengthen the tendons and muscles. It felt much better after both physically but mentally. I realized I have the knowledge necessary to help care for and improve my body.

Day 9: I delight in moving, stretching and working my body
We used to be in a world that required a significant of work from our bodies to survive. We had to chop wood, carry water, climb trees etc just to survive from day to day. In our current situation, we have almost everything we need right in our homes. This creates a lack of exercise for most people. Do you have an exercise routine? Is it a chore? Do you feel guilty when you skip it? Stop exercising out of obligation and find a routine or an activity that you love to benefit your body. It is important to exercise out of delight not obligation. When you approach movement in this way you begin to crave it.

I love to be exercising. This meditation did help me to see that sometimes I do exercise out of obligation and less out of enjoyment. There are certain exercises that we do that we do not particularly like but we know are good for us. I go to yoga not out of obligation but out of enjoyment. It helps bring me a sense of connection to my body, and realize my patterns of thought during challenge.

Day 10: I invite myself to fully experience everything that I feel

Four of our five senses are located in the head the mind can become very noisy. We often keep our attention focused on these aspects of experience and pay less attention to the body. The body is the perfect place to register conflict and notice where there is resistance not just in the body but that translates to the mind. Every time you think about controlling an aspect of life, every worry, every resentment, every thought that goes through you that you believe to be true is registered somewhere in the body. All you have to do now is just tune in, be willing to meet these feelings in order to release them.

Today was a little bit of a stressful day. I experienced some issues with my car and it is only 7 months old. The car place called said I needed to replace my tires, and change my cabin filter, yet they never mentioned anything about my windshield the whole reason I brought my car in, in the first place. There was a little bit of heat build in my body, and I felt the blood pumping through my veins. Heart started to pound a little bit harder than natural resting rate. I stayed with this experience to feel all the ways in which my body was reacting to this news. I felt like the car place was simply trying to wring out all the money they possibly could from me. So I stayed with it, even let out several tears, and then I let it go. If that was the case I would take my car elsewhere and find a better deal. My husband and my mother would help me figure out what I needed to do now and what could wait. Although very angry in the moment I did not let my mind take over- I stayed with the sensations happening in my body and let it be.

Day 11: I am not my mind

Although we give our mind a tremendous amount of power, and attention; even though you see your mental structures in large part as defining your identity, even though you may consider it among your greatest assets, you are not your mind. Our minds are our own creation through experience. When we are born we are mindless. When we begin to assemble these experiences into mental constructs we navigate our future situations. Remind yourself today that you are not your mind, nor the person whose name you use, or whose body you occupy. You have that person, you have that mind, but you are bigger, freer, and safer than anything the mind can perceive.

When we are born we are born without mind. With no experience, no walls, no social constructs. We simply are, we live each moment as they are and express our feelings freely. As we become older, we have created barriers both through experience and our environment which shape how we live. Today I focused on breaking down these barriers, diving deep into the mind and observing some of the walls that were made, that perhaps were not even my own. Some of the anxieties of my parents were placed on me, and they are fear-based anxieties. I choose to not accept them as my own and let them go.

Day 12: I notice my inner critic
We all have an inner critic. It is the product of an upbringing that emphasizes the value of being right, likeable, and approved of. In a very confused way, your critic believes it is protecting you by pointing out your flaws. By being your judgemental parent, friend, or tyrant- to let you fix your own mistakes before anyone else notices and then punish yourself when you fall short (acting looking thinking or feeling imperfect). The first step is to notice your critic. Notice these negative thoughts, turn up the volume and notice your inner critics personality and tone of voice. Maybe its an old teacher, parent, army general, or whiny baby. The better you recognize them, and their incessant negativity, the more readily you can evaluate its criticisms rather than being silently diminished by them.

My inner critic is the one that often tells me I can’t do something, that it is impossible, that I am not good enough, or it is too hard. It sounds like a whiny old lady- kind of like Lois from family guy. I was taking a yoga class with Robi today when I heard her chime in with her opinion. She said your thigh is working too hard, you are going to fall, it was nagging at me trying to get me to come out of warrior 2. Instead of coming out of Warrior 2 I stayed there, recognized my inner critic for what she was, she was trying to protect me, but in a non judgemental way, I simply watched and said I am ok, I am in yoga, I will stay in Warrior 2 and build the strength in my thighs.

Day 13: Thank you mind for your effort to protect me

When your mind criticizes you, limits you or pollutes your experience it is always attempting to protect you even while it may be destructive in the process. It is important to see it in that way to recognize the mind has beliefs (survive, control, approval, pleasure, and avoidance of pain) and these beliefs can be restrictive to experience. The mind does not respond well to attack so the most effective strategies are more gentle ones. THE POWERFUL, CLEAR, TIMELESS YOU WILL TAKE IT FROM HERE. Notice today the ways in which the mind attempts to manipulate your perception or grab for your attention and thank it.

I know my mind is always trying to protect me. For the last 2 years I have been dealing with PTSD triggers. PTSD is a form of stress disorder that often has depression and anxiety weaved into it. It makes you believe you are not as good as others because you are the one injured where there were other people involved in the incident that did not become affected. It is truly a mind game to which no one is a winner. There is never enough time in a day to complete all the tasks required to get done and you wonder how some people have the time to cook meals, clean the house, work full time job and go to the gym. This can bring a feeling of inadequacy as well. Sometimes when you have a significant other who makes remarks about needing to accomplish tasks it reinforces your ideas of not being enough, or doing enough. This is the mind interjecting and reinforcing the idea you have about not being enough. I recognize my mind is trying to protect me, and remind myself I am enough.

Day 14: I see the ways my mind limits my experience of life

Be a witness to your minds activities today without attempting to scold or alter the mind, see if you can simply apply consciousness to expand beyond it, so you can watch the mind from outside. To immerse yourself in experience without identifying with it.
Our minds are profound devices that enable us to communicate with others to learn, to solve problems, to create, and of course to survive. Our minds take survival the most seriously because your survival means its survival. Wrapped up in survival are the pursuits of pleasure, approval, and control which are what make us feel safe. On the other side of that however is the avoidance of pain (which creates the feeling of being endangered). In this way our bodies try to avoid discomfort, and threats and search to find comfort, safety, pleasure, approval and control. When our minds take on this search they inevitably find discomfort/pain because that is there focus. The more our minds focus on that one thing the more we recognize it. As marvellous as our minds are, they are great at pattern recognition, BUT err on the side of caution. That means the moment our bodies start to feel like a pattern is being recognized and we stay unaware of the bodies reactions, the more heightened the state fear.

When I was originally diagnosed with PTSD my fight or flight system was constantly kicked into high gear. Almost as though there was always a danger. Over time, and through a lot of self care (YOGA) it started to simmer. I recognized that certain yoga poses, specifically heart openers/backbends like camel made me relive the experience. I could feel the blood pumping in my body, the feeling of wanting to retreat and hide. Instead stayed with that sensation in my body. I knew it was only a stress response but at first it was so powerful, it felt like it overpowered me time and time again. Until finally I came to terms with camel pose. I kept practicing, and learned how to be okay with the sensation, and let go of the story that was associated with that feeling. It took a long time, and a lot of camel poses later but now it is one of my favourite poses because it showed me just how strong I am, and helped me grow exponentially. Specifically pertaining to this day, I had a interesting reflection. I placed a barrier on myself earlier in the day. I went to the gym and worked on arms and shoulders. I then thought I wanted to attend core class with Robbi but I thought it might be too much for me. I placed that barrier thinking my body would already be exhausted and not want to work out any more after. I went to core class and thought if I need to or feel so inclined I will just take childs pose. It was tired after class but I pushed through some of my mental boundaries and did the whole class without slowing down.

Day 15: I forgive my mind for impairing my ability to experience peace and happiness

Despair, fear, anger, sadness, shame, loneliness, and every other negative feeling do you know where they originate? In your own mind. This means it is your mind preventing you from experiencing peace and happiness regardless of the circumstances and whether those feelings are justified. FORGIVE your mind today, for all the ways it altered your perception and degraded your life. Today’s meditation is all about allowing yourself to perceive the presence of the mind amidst the sea of awareness and the emotions carried in your body. Can you see the way in which they obscure your awareness? Can you feel when you blame or resist your thoughts and emotions how they become stronger, more solid, more real?

I thanked my mind today for protecting me, I know that is what it is always attempting to do. Every barrier, every wall we create in our mind is simply a figment of imagination put in place to protect us from the evils of the outer world. When we become threatened or challenged we hide behind these barriers, and build them up even higher to solidify our experiences and our perceptions. Every time you shed your awareness onto these barriers it is like we remove one brick at a time, and soon that wall will come crashing down to open us up to the reality or truth of experience, untainted by perception. I know when I start breaking down my barriers I start to get a little testy with myself, but also with others. It feels like a recoil almost like my mind is trying to tell me no you cannot go out there exposed. It is a simple reminder that I am ok and I can take it from here without the protection of my minds barriers.

Day 16: Today I listen with my whole self
In early childhood, you were taught to place tremendous value on your mind. When you were right you were praised and received approval and it helped to avoid pain, and embarrassment to ensure survival. It is us who created the stream of judgement and analysis on others around us, these judgements and analysis provided us with data reinforced our beliefs. Let your perception expand. Listen to the symphony outside of your narrow view, let your attention spread wide open beyond the limits of your mind. See what insights await you when you broaden your awareness.

Today my awareness was constricted to my feelings of discontent and anxiousness. I had a full day to myself, where there was no one to please and I just wanted to do absolutely nothing. I did however convince myself to go to the gym since I had no gone the day before. I find when I spend a day not working or stretching my body, I almost become more lethargic. After spending some time at the gym yesterday I felt better and realised that the day to myself was exactly what I needed in order to boost my energy and reconnect to my intentions.

Day 17: I choose to stay conscious while eating
It is becoming more and more “normal” to not stay aware as we eat. We stop paying attention to what we are putting in our mouths, and how we are nourishing our body. It becomes life on autopilot. Eating is one of the most special acts you can engage in, when you take the most delicious parts of the outside world and incorporate them into yourself. When you take part in this experience not only do your nourish your body and cells but you also reaffirm your unity with the natural world that birthed and sustains you.
When I take my time to eat I get to savour all the flavours, and feel grateful to connect with what it is I am eating. It is also a way to really connect to the body and watch the body’s reactions to the different types of food. When practicing mindful eating you really get to connect with your digestion and realize how little you need to eat in order to feel satisfied. I have done this practice many times and it still blows my mind the reactions of the body. I enjoy smelling and savouring the smell of food, and when you finally go to put it in your mouth you feel your mouth start to salivate. This is before it even touches your tongue. More saliva is produced once you take your first bite. Concious eating is one of the most beautiful acts we can engage in, to tune into the body’s responses.

Day 18: I allow love and light to permeate, heal and illuminate me

We are all made up of and surrounded by energy. It flows through you unrestricted facilitated through breath. It is always available to us and we can easily alter or restrict the flow by resistance to life, defensiveness and fear. Everyday is an opportunity to bask in the light energy, to consciously absorb that energy into each cell of your body. Open yourself up to it, intend it, receive it. Let today be the day you let light saturate & illuminate you. Let you body, mind and soul be enveloped in love.

When I read todays intention it reminded of a yoga practice I did once with one of my favourite instructors. We came to Savasana after a beautiful slow flow practice and she said to go to your inner lake of light. Imagine its tranquility and stillness and you sit by the waters edge and let the sunlight permeate your body. The sun transfers its energy onto you. Invite light and love in. On this specific day I imagine my cells being healed particularly in the third eye area as I have had issues with my sinuses the last few days. I imagined those blocked energies being healed so the energy can flow freely and fluidly within my being.

Day 19: The way I use my words has an impact on the world
Your words have the power to insult or uplift, to hurt or to heal. When you choose to communicate in person, conversation, writing, social media, or any other expression remember that it will affect the recipient for good or bad. The words you think and share today were shaped by the generations before you. Not just the actual words as they are today but the way they were used and their implications from years passed. Only the most stable and aware people can hear your complaints, fears and gossip without being affected. Your words shape internal and external environment that you live in. Use your words wisely and use them to support your highest good.
My intention is to always use my words for good, I try to avoid gossip although I did relay information to a guy friend that a girl found him attractive. The way he responded I think the information made him feel a little uncomfortable and I felt bad for sharing. I thought at the time the information would have been appreciated due to the nature of the conversation however it seemed to make him uncomfortable. After I said it I immediately regretted it and realized how powerful words really are and how deeply they can affect us.

Day 20: I value my inner agreements
We all have made agreements with ourselves or others in one-way or another. There are repercussions when we do not value or we decide to break those agreements. You may feel a sense of anger, disappointment, loss of trust, or damage to the relationship when you break an agreement with another, but when you break and agreement with yourself you don’t think too much of it. Unfortunately those agreements you have with yourself are every bit as important, because they reinforce trust in yourself, the power of your word is weakened, you feed your inner critic, you undermine your ability to accomplish ambitious goals, and you send the message to yourself I do not respect you, you do not matter. Today begin to value your inner agreements and valuing yourself. Forgive the agreements you have broken with yourself and make agreements you know you can keep.

I set an agreement with myself for today, and chose to honour it. It was a challenge, because there were opportunities for me to break the agreement, however I did make a conscious choice to honour that agreement. It can be difficult if you set agreements with yourself that are unattainable. For instance, when I started my be healthy pillar, in order for me to give up chocolate for a month I simply did one day at a time. Today I will not eat chocolate, and then soon it was a whole month and I was able to give it up for 30 full days. It feel a sense of power when I honour my agreements, and a sense of accomplishment.

Day 21: My agreements are like seeds in the world

As you consistently keep agreements with yourself and others you harness power and develop momentum. When you do what you say you are going to do you make your intentions reality. When you keep your agreements, your mind settles and it no longer obstructs the circumstances you request. As any good gardener knows you do not simply plant the seeds and walk away never to return again. In this way you are the gardener and you agreements that you keep are the seeds that you plant over and over again. You water them with your awareness, and shine your light to enrich them over time. You pull the weeds that surround them just as you would pull your focus away from distractions to tend to the seeds.

The agreement I made with myself was to set goals for myself through this year. For the month of January I wanted to learn one new yoga pose, and learn two old ones as though they were new. Pranayama and Tree pose. Today I worked on that goal and found some new sensations in tree pose. This was for the benefit of my own practice but also the benefit of my students. It felt really good to rediscover an old pose. This agreement did harness a sense of inner strength and also that all the tools I need are already within me, I do not always have to search outside myself to find answers. It is important to recognize that when we take the time to relearn things we already know, we discover a new found wisdom both in ourselves and the thing we are learning.

Day 22: I choose to be intentional around making agreements

When making agreements it is important to be clear as it is an essential part in establishing a relationship of love and trust with yourself. We all know how important a strong foundation is, and ambiguity makes for a weak foundation. Make sure you are clear about your agreement, that way you know how to fulfill it. Don’t make an agreement that your heart is not invested fully, you want to make sure you devote your full attention to fulfilling agreements with yourself. These are opportunities to show the power of your word.

This is something I know is a challenge for me as there are times when I make agreements with myself and then break them. It might be because I tend to be vague about my agreements and perhaps get a little side tracked when it comes to certain ones. I focused more today on devoting my full attention to specific agreements and making sure I stick to them. There are always opportunities to give in, but it is important to remember to stay strong and let the power of your word be enough. I do not need this; I only want it because I want it to feel better.

Day 23: I use my words with care:

Your words spoken, written, thought, or simply held in your mind colour your experience and your perspective of the world around you. If it is a tragedy or a triumph – both largely depend on the language or script you choose. When you decide to shift and make that change on your script or the dialogue you choose, the community around you become aware and changes its dialogue too. Your words and actions are the means in which you make your intentions/agreements reality. It is important to realize how much your integrity and self trust rely on the agreements we keep with ourselves, it is also important to realize intentions are powerful tools of creation. Today notice the words you choose to express, and what is of value and what is not.

It is so true that it is all about where our heads are at when we decide to label it as good or bad. Events, situations can influence our decisions slightly but it is really all about your perspective in that moment. Two people could experience the day together and each labels it very differently. I know for me, it is challenging when I hear things in the news about police/firefighters dealing with difficult calls, mainly because I remember what that was like, and I had a hard time to distance myself from it not that long ago. This sometimes affects me more than I would like, but I know it is because I let it. Simple as that, we let things affect us both positively and negatively. We can choose to let it have the opposite effect. I choose for all situations good or bad to have a positive impact on me. Yes sometimes things will be difficult but that does not mean we have to let it affect us negatively. I know that it has surfaced to help promote my greatest growth.


Day 24: I take time for stillness today and everyday
Our minds are more active than ever. We are always absorbed in stimulation, analysis, judgement, and rehashing. All the technology around us help us to stay constantly engaged. Information consumption is an addiction and epidemic. Meanwhile deliberate mental stillness is a rare special thing. When we create stillness for our minds it helps foster a sense of peace and connection. The sense that this right now is enough. Stillness is healing especially to our minds that know not how to be present or focused very long. Dedicate some time for stillness for yourself today. Hold space for you to just simply be.

I love to give myself stillness everyday for at least five minutes. It is a great way to both start off the day with a clear un-obscured perspective, and to finish the day in gratitude for what was accomplished or learned. I was very distracted for this meditation as I woke up to my step son’s girlfriend using something that belonged to me without permission. It really bothered me as I felt it was disrespectful and it kept me distracted during my meditation, my mind swiftly being caught up with the story. I used this as an opportunity to forgive her, and realized that I was over reacting, I mean it is only stuff. It is merely the tangible that can be taken away at any moment. In reality all things tangible are subject to change especially life as it is now. This is where stillness opens your heart and mind up to clarify your perspective and let go of the little things. I was ok that I overreacted in my mind, but there was no need to dwell on the fact that something was once there and now it is gone. This is just like our human life, our belongings over the years we live, and some of the people we meet along the way. It is merely a reminder that this life is precious so do not waste it worrying about things.


Day 25: Forgiveness is the key to freedom
All the ways you do not believe your inner world and outer world are unacceptable to you shows the ways in which you are constrained. If life were a map of the world, the people you don’t particularly care for, the aspects of your personality that do not meet your approval, and the events in which you have not yet forgiven, these would be territories you have decided are off limits. You remain in regions where you feel comfortable and safe. When you are ready for complete freedom, you will have to venture to these undiscovered territories and forgive them to find deeper peace and greater happiness. Each time we forgive we drop one of the sandbags that has been weighing us down, dark rooms illuminated, locked doors unlocked, and scattered fragments of your power reclaimed. There are no places you can not go, explore those territories and open up to freedom.

I choose to forgive and be free! When you meditate on forgiveness and imagine the people and the situations that occurred in your lifetime that you wish to forgive, and you truly, from your heart forgive them and yourself you will feel a shift, a weight lift from your shoulders. This burden that you have been carrying for so long is finally gone, you feel so light. This was one of my favourite meditations because it really helped me understand that going back in the past to forgive people who have done wrong to you or perhaps when you did wrong to others, you can although you feel bad, you can accept it, and let it go. It no longer helps the person you are now. It helped you get here, and it has served its purpose.


Day 26: I am limited by withholding forgiveness

When we withhold forgiveness from others we do not completely accept them, it can be said for objects, as well as parts of our inner and outer worlds. Which means if we are unable to forgive a part of ourselves internally we can not completely accept it. This creates impediments or road blocks, and limits flow of life both internally and externally. LET IT ALL GO! Notice ALL of your complaints with the world and yourself and notice all the ways you do not accept things as they are. TODAY simply notice how restricted your experience has been or still is and simply let it go. Could I forgive instead of seeking to restrict?


I know I withhold forgiveness the following circumstances.
-over indulging
-for people who are unwilling to accept others as they are (which is a tad ironic because I technically am not fully accepting of them either)
-for those who intentionally try to harm others
-for not always staying true to my word or commitments with myself.
These are areas in which I strive to improve and try to forgive more easily. I recognize it, but it takes me a few moments to forgive, it does not come as easily as some of the other situations of forgiveness. I choose to let it all go. Forgive as much as I can, whenever I can.
Day 27: Resentment obscures my vision

When you harbour resentment it dims your vision by narrowing your perspective. In this way it shrinks the number of possibilities before you. Instead of a world of limitless options you see where things may be lacking. While open eyes perceive beauty, diversity, and innocence and a narrowed gaze comes with resentment, brokenness, deceit and separation. Take a step back and see the whole painting, the infinite expressions of love. When you take the narrow perspective you choose disapproval and although it does not change the painting, it does prevent you from seeing the bigger picture. LET GO, discover your capacity to see the bigger picture and understand truth. Choose to see beyond resentment and stop fixating on what appears to be wrong this way you will perceive the context and you will learn to trust and grow.

I know that I can become narrow minded when emotions get involved, especially if it is anger. Emotions are those little gremlins that try to nag and draw your attention away from truth, from presence. This was a great tool for me since the night before my husband was up several times in the night and decided to turn on the light at 2 in the morning. I woke up and got angry with him, since he was being inconsiderate to me who was sleeping by turning on lights. My initial reaction was to yell at him to turn the darn light off, which may have happened, but then I started to calm down a little when I realized the reason the light is on is because he is also having difficulty sleeping. I made him understand that if he is having a hard time sleeping, instead of making every cranky and with little sleep he should leave the room and watch tv, play on his phone, or whatever else he needs to do when he can not sleep. It helped me to relay how I felt in the moment, and come up with a better solution instead of just yelling at him for doing something “wrong” from my perspective. It was only a small portion of the painting.
Day 28: Forgiveness is an ongoing commitment

As much as you and I might hope to make a momentary expression of forgiveness and forever be free, the mind tends to not comply with that desire. Strong feelings create deep grooves and we can easily fall back into our old patterns. In this way, it is important to make a sincere, heartfelt commitment to stick with forgiveness to release harboured resentments. Even though resentments may be gone, they may rear their head decades later and force you to forgive again without judgement or self criticism. What complaints do I commit to forgive for now and forever?

It is true that although we can forgive and truly mean it, does not mean it will never come up again in future situations or conversations. I do choose however to forgive myself and all others to help create a sense of well being for myself and heal deep rooted wounds from the past & present. When I was a young child I was bullied at school by so called friends. They were cruel, and did terrible things. I was so angry with them for the longest time for making me feel bad about my body and myself. When I graduated from high school I still held that wound in my heart. It wasn’t until I was about 20years old that I forgave them and I do not think I fully did. I used this as a chance to heal that wound, and I know the wound is not fully healed. There is and probably always will be a scar that remains, but I no longer hold resentment for those individuals who helped me see how I needed to grow and become stronger.
Day 29: Forgiveness transcends time and space

When you forgive, time and space collapse. When you choose to not forgive and condemn you or others you allow your mind to stay and continually subscribe to it. As you start to forgive the past you begin to heal these age-old wounds, a story of sin is re-written. As past is released, present and future change as well all of time is altered past present and future. Light spreads across the mind, illuminating any pockets previously condemned to darkness. True forgiveness restores unity.

Forgiveness really is a gift that we give to ourselves because it re-connects us with others and ourselves. I do not want to be pulled into my past from mistakes, and ways that I have hurt others and myself. I choose to forgive myself and forgive others for the things that have happened in my lifetime. When I was about 7 years old, I was in a serious car accident. My face struck the dash and my lip was pulled from my jaw. I required 50+ stitches in my face and was bruised from chin to hips. My brother was driving our car and an older couple driving the other car that went through the red light. At that time, although it was traumatic and difficult to eat through a syringe, it never slowed me down; it never made my light or vision become dark. I forgave that couple as soon as it happened, and forgave my brother. It was an accident it was not intentional and it was something in my life that brought me here, gave me the tools I needed to be who I am today. I was the one who chose to sit in the front seat where the seat belt was not tightened fully, and I forgive myself for that too. Cars still frighten me, but I make it a point to breathe deeply and let it go.
Day 30: I heal wounds with forgiveness

Unhealed wounds can be easily reopened because our past is our life experience. We tend to lean into the things we enjoy or like and resist the things we do not. We resist those things because of past experiences that makes it seem as though we do not want to replay past mistakes. These wounds present an ongoing vulnerability that detracts from your freedom and resilience. It is worthwhile to dive deep into past experience to discover these wounds and help heal them with forgiveness. They can not be forgotten or pretend like they never happened because they will surface again. Apply forgiveness liberally and repeatedly to any and all wounds of past experience whether they are old or new, insurmountable, minor or seemingly insignificant. Let all these wounds heal, and just like a cut on your skin, it may leave a scar.

This has been a challenging experience for me to forgive all these past experiences. Especially today’s in particular. I took it back to my days as a 911 operator. I forgive myself for being too soft hearted, for having too much compassion, and wanting to help make the world a better place for all that live in it. I tried hard to not be as empathetic as I was, but as my dad called it, I was too soft hearted to not let all those emergency situations bother me. There are some deep wounds that left scars after I left my position as an operator. Experiences that I would have loved to forget or that never existed in the first place. Especially the man who made me question existence, who terrified an entire town, and who had no consideration or compassion for others. He changed the lives of many in one simple day. I forgive him, and myself for not being strong enough to handle the terror and misery that followed. I forgive that one family that wanted to kill their own dog because they did not want to take care of it anymore, and I forgive myself for having an angry reaction towards them because of it. My heart is big and I want the world to be a big beautiful place that we all live in, but I know from experience that there are some really terrible things in this world. These things can often make me wonder why do they happen, but without the bad there could be no compassion, no love and no light. Because we only see the good when we have experienced “bad.”


Slowly eyes flutter open to reveal a brand new 24 hours. I sit and revel in the sheer beauty of another day. We often forget how marvelous it is that we get to live, to open our eyes, to share our hearts with others. We forget that when we wake up that in itself is a beauty to behold. Then we take our time, stretch a little to revitalize those joints that may have become stiff from sleep or long held positions. This lubricates our joints and awakens our body. What is the first thing you do in the morning? Before you actually roll out of bed? Do you check your phone? Be honest.

We all have, and maybe that is not how you wake up everyday, but I know I had been doing it for a long time. And often times it would be like the media or the newspaper, lots of sad difficult stories intended to keep you living in fear and making more and more purchases with money perhaps you do not even have. Every time I would wake up and check my phone before I got out of bed I realized my day was not as marvelous, I would forget about the mundane things that were actually miracles, and gratitude came less frequently. So the challenge I set for myself: Try to wake up and not look at the phone until after breakfast.

Today is day 1: I felt my feet hit the floor, I walked to the bathroom where I of course emptied my bladder( I know TMI) and brushed my teeth. The realization I had was that I was connected to these mundane everyday activities on a deeper level. I concentrated more on my actions as I did these activities. I became less reactive when I drove into town, when the guy in the gray car sped by me and cut me off. I was grateful for the opportunity to get things done, and did not feel burdened by them (which I normally do). I was excited for the other projects I will be working on for the next few months. To spend time and energy gathering knowledge and understanding myself deeper.  All because I refused to devote my energy to a small electronic device for an hour of my morning.

The realization: The energy we spend on things is very precious and we should take the time to think about something before doing it, because is that really where we want to devote our energy, or could it be used for something more important? When we feel void of all our energy everything feels like a burden, people who want and crave our attention, our chores, our job, even some of the things we love to do but often don’t have or make enough time for them.

This is only day 1.

To the man who stole my mother’s heart

I knew before I met you that you had to be special
because my mother was not one to ever settle.

She lived on her own for 20 years
Not really sure she had let go of all her fears.

She told me about you and that is when I knew
That the man of her dreams- well that was you.

She never thought that day would come
When she’d open heart despite the possible outcome

She found her true love, her white shinning knight
someone who shared that same bright light.

With drives and adventures all planned out
What was all this crazy talk about

Illness and disease so close, so near
Sometimes forgotten over the sound of laughter and cheer

It quickly caught up and upset the scale
 bringing with it, all that illness entails.

Your heart was full, and you were so soft spoken
I knew you never wanted to leave my mom heart broken.

But progressively you began to fade away
A wedding it is! with little delay

We celebrated the journey that lead us here
Perhaps shedding quite a few tears

Both slowly and quickly You began to decline
You held on, because you did not want to leave us all behind

We know now you are somewhere warm,
while we ride out the waves of grief like a storm.

You are somewhere loving, majestic with an incredible view
And remember dear Armand, that we will always love you.


The Pendulum of possibilities

For the last 9 months I have been off work at first I felt trapped in a deep dark abyss with the walls caving in ready to collapse in on me at any moment. I was deprived of oxygen, of air and freedom for so long I forgot that it was, a creation of my mind concocted to ensnare my senses and open my eyes to the transition that was about to occur in my life. 

I was propelled to the surface in the most fascinating way. Stopping along the way at various intervals to allow my senses to feel and see the progression of my mind, body and soul as well as my surroundings. It was a transition that although took two years to arrive has felt much quicker than that.

The first year was hard, mourning the person I used to be, while dealing with my own trauma and the constant bombardment of triggers from the trauma of others being in the 911 business this was when I was in the deep dark despair of my heart and soul. I was unable to cope with my own life and it was now affecting me to the point I could not do my job to the best of my abilities. It was a hard decision but I knew it had to be made. I had to distance myself from my triggers, to gain a new perspective- new clarity. 

My decision to continue to teach yoga was probably the best one I ever made because that brought me joy but also it got me out of the house and into a routine. To top it all off I was constantly looking for new insights to provide my students but it also helped me gain insight into my own life. It is what saved me, it was the helping hand that reached out and yanked me out of the depths and into the present moment. Each insight, each meditation, each breath technique, and each posture saved me one at a time. I still remember how it felt to be in a constant state of anxiety BUT I no longer have to spend days recovering from one incident that set my inner fire. I realize that spark was one intended to help spark change in my life through my perspective. 

I read in a book that we all swing on the pendulum of possibilities. Sometimes on the positive end, sometimes the negative. If we believe we must stay on one end of the spectrum, for most that being the positive side, a part of you becomes attached to that outcome and resistant to the other. This creates a conflict within and limits our beliefs about what we must be. This means we are living with a fear based perspective, it ends up being a conditional one and restricts us from fully blossoming. I truly believed that I always had to be happy, and when I was not it created conflict inside. Instead of just accepting how I felt, I kept hiding from it, like I was playing hide and seek. Until finally it caught up with me, but it was much bigger & much scarier than I ever had anticipated. 

To make peace with all that I had been hiding from, well I had to become first aware of it. Realize that it is ok to feel something other than happy, its ok to feel sad, angry, hurt, irritated, negative, etc. But what is not ok is to let how you feel dictate how you treat yourself and others around you. 

So what are my techniques? Theres a few that work for me

1. I meditate: I engage my awareness, soften all the muscles in my body, and allow ALL thoughts to surface, and simply let them enter and pass just like clouds in the sky. They enter your field of awareness and then they float by. Also during meditation I may use a mantra that I feel may resonate with me that day. For example : i am secure, i am supported, i am strong, i am calm, i am open, i am kind, i am free, i am worthy, i am enough, i am healed. If there is one that particularly you may not feel -use it and remind yourself of the ways that you are. For example I felt that I was not being supported by some of the people around me, but then I realized it was only in one aspect of my life I felt unsupported and there were many other ways these people were supporting me. 

It always up to us to see other perspectives and truly see the big picture. If we resist certain things they will continue to persists until they are finally dealt with.

2. Write things down. Make a list of things that bother you. Start with just listing them off, and then think deeply about WHY they bother you. Then in order to symbolically and literally let them go- i crumple /scratch out or burn the piece of paper.

3. Through teaching yoga I constantly strive to find new methods to improve, connect deeper with my students and also provide them with life insights, but what I realized was I also used those insights to help me ride the waves of life more easily and comfortably. 

These are my methods and my experience dealing with trauma. It is different for everyone. You have to find something you love that provides you joy, and helps your body relax on every level. Find sayings, prayers or simple mantras that help provide you with strength courage or with what you might feel you lack that day. Breathe into anxiety and stress and find comfort even in uncomfortable sensations or emotions. I STRONGLY encourage others to go out and choose insights that resonate for them and explore how they can teach or help others with these newly discovered tidbits of wisdom. 

Afraid of silence

We have a tendency to be constantly on the go, constantly in conversation with ourselves or others. We forget to stop and simply enjoy the sounds of the moment, the sounds of silence.

Why do we have the innate need to be always talking to someone, to always be moving and to never sit in stillness? We want to be busy because it looks to others as though we are always productive. In all honesty how much of that constant busyness is actually productive? We all know that despite what we are actually doing our mind wonders off to these far off places of past or future either reminiscing or waiting for an event or situation. Are we actually productive to our fullest potential? And how many hours a day are we actually productive? 

An average worker works 8 hours a day but studies show that they are actually only productive 3 hours of that 8 hour day. Most workers spend the majority of their time being distracted by social media, other people or their own mind. A study from found that the average office worker is only productive for two hours and 53 minutes a day. A lot of time is spent checking social media accounts, news websites, taking smoke breaks and even looking for a new job. More than half need to break up the day with short breaks. The reason being most people can not stay concentrated on a single task for much more than an hour. This is the breakdown of where our attention diverts to.

1. Checking social media – 47% (44 minutes in 8 hours).

 2. Reading news websites – 45% (65 minutes in 8 hours).

 3. Discussing out-of-work activities with colleagues – 38% (40 minutes).

 4. Making hot drinks – 31% (17 minutes). 

5. Smoking breaks – 28% (23 minutes).

 6. Texting and instant messaging – 27% (14 minutes). 

7. Eating snacks – 25% (8 minutes). 

8. Making food in the office – 24% (7 minutes).

 9. Making calls to partners and friends – 24% (18 minutes). 

10. Searching for new jobs – 19% (26 minutes).

It is definitely important to evaluate how you spend your time at work and home, this way we can see if there are ways you are able to be more productive in your life. I have found that taking 20 minutes in the morning for myself- my quiet time it helps improve my focus but also my healthy happy thoughts. Meditation is known for it ability to de-stress mind before work but also helps to improve focus on the tasks at hand. I was reading this article about how 35% of all heart attacks happen on Monday morning. The stress of the thought of work alone induces heart attacks for those prone to them. This idea of stress inducing dis-ease has become a real interest to me, as I myself had been in a state of disaster for a few years. But with the help of breath & body connection through yoga I have been able to lessen those extreme feelings that used to be a constant. Now they come and go but I am much more capable of managing those feelings that arise with feelings of anxiousness or stress. The moment I felt overwhelmed, anxious or stressed I would spin out of control into fits of anger, sadness and fear. Now I recognize my reaction, take a few breaths and return to my response- instead of reaction without thought. It is imperative we recognize our reactions and ask ourselves is this really how I want to respond to others. 

I was afraid of silence- of being alone with myself because I wasn’t really sure I liked the person I was at that time.  The reason being wasn’t because I bad person, it was because I went through a very traumatic situation for me that created the fight or flight response within. My body was always on high alert, reacting thinking I was always in danger. Through relaxation, breathing and drawing myself back to the present- I was able to remember respond instead of react, be here, now, be compassionate and loving toward myself. It is ok to be wrong, as long as you do things out of love. As long as you do your best to realize that you yourself are your best friend- be a little selfish once in a while because you can not depend on others to give you a break. Be the bestest friend you have, find and understand your reactions where they come from and why they are there. Be gentle with yourself when you make a mistake, but learn from it. Love yourself more- never less, especially when you are having difficulties, difficult emotions, and fears. Let love in.

When The Darkness Becomes Light

Deep into the dark abyss
We lose sight of all that surrounds us.
No light and Unable to concentrate
we lose focus.

We are slowly drawn down
Pulled in further by fear
It seems to swallow you whole
Deeper and darker it all seems unclear.

Confused & alone
With nothing to grasp, or hold
You are strong and full of power
Just harness it & be bold.

Internally see
Feel that tiny spark
Let it begin to radiate out
From depths that surround your heart.

Allow yourself to be the light
Fuel it with acceptance and love
Let it embrace you, sustain you
and allow you to love and be loved.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

It is a funny thing, we are asked this question so many times as a child and it all depended on the moment that we were asked what we would respond. For some of us, it was always the same thing but for others it was constantly being adjusted.

My dream as a young child was to be a performer (singing,  dancing, acting) it really did not matter what it was, I just wanted to perform, have an audience and allow them to experience emotions, from laughter & joy to sadness and anger. To really dive deep into these emotions and allow them to be expressed. My mind about my life’s goals changed over the years many times but it was always part of my soul that I wanted to help people in some way.

When I was 15 I had the idea I wanted to become a Doctor because I was good in school and enjoyed learning. I thought it was the road to take in order to help people. What we don’t see at that age is there are so many professions out there to help others. I believed that being a Doctor was where I needed to be too fulfill my life’s mission. 

Doctors, nurses, police officers, fire fighters, psychologists, counsellors, therapists (in all different avenues), life coach, etc. The list really does go on in terms of helpers in any given community. When I realized at the age of 19 that being a Doctor was not really the avenue I wanted to go, I kind of stumbled across 911 operator. I thought this is something I could do. I can type quickly, I am good at multi tasking, and I am a very compassionate and loving person with a desire to help people. I enrolled in a College program Emergency Telecommunications it was a new course to help identify this as a career and shorten the time spent training. It takes 6-10 months to be fully trained at a 911 centre because there is so much to learn. You have to become familiar with policies and protocols for dealing with specific types of calls and how to appropriately respond.

  I did this job for 6 years until finally the feeling of overwhelm became too much to bare. Always hearing the worst possible scenarios, listening to people on their worst days, and the negativity that surrounded me felt like I was slowly drowning with no one to help or even recognize that it was happening – except me. Finally making some decisions for myself I cut myself off from the negativity. My thought was it was the best way out of the anxiety I was feeling in my life. In reality I was simply running away from the very thing I needed to face in order to get better. In order to process certain events it requires us to live them over and over again, until finally they no longer trigger an emotional response but instead become simply a memory. We have to sit with our emotions in the beginning, even when they are difficult and overwhelming. The reason being is that if we ever want to learn from our difficulties and allow ourselves to move on we have to put the event behind us. 

After being off work for months, I slowly gained momentum a little bit at a time, energy started to return, as well as my inner glow. With the help of a psychologist I now have 85% good days. Good days means I manage to surface from my house and explore the world without letting the fear of something bad happening stop me. There are still days when there is nothing more I want to do than stay in bed, it is part of my illness. I have learned to accept that fact, however sometimes I push myself to get out and sometimes I have to honour what my mind needs. I believe the reason I stay in bed and refuse to emerge is because I eventually become overstimulated and need a day away from everything to refill my empty cup. To process some of the current life or death situations in my life. I made some outstanding realizations since being off work. I am strong, independent, and have more resilience now than I did 6 years ago. I also feel more empowered to make choices that are right for me despite what everyone else around me might need or want. I used to simply do things for others because I wanted to help, but unfortunately it took a toll on me. Another realisation was that when I looked around there was not one person whose life I wanted? There was no one in there who seemed content with the life they lived, that I could say wow that person is truly happy, and enjoys what they do. 

So now at the age of 27 I am being faced with that question again, what do I want to be when I grow up?

To be completely honest I do not know, the only answer I have for that question is happy. For me happy means traveling, spending time with people I love, teaching and doing yoga, and surrounding myself with people fulfilling their life goals through their life’s purpose. It also means that I find my life’s purpose – to help others in a way only I am capable. What that means yet I do not know but I will not stop searching for my answer. I will continue to do what I can with what I am given and be grateful for the chance to find my happiness.  

Deep meaning in The Shack (spoiler alert)

My husband and I went to the movies the other night to see the Shack. We of course read the book prior to seeing the movie but it was still quite amazing. The story line is about a man who takes his kids on a camping adventure for the weekend and his daughter gets abducted while he attempts to save his other child from drowning. We find out shortly thereafter that she was murdered. The entire movie is about how this man learns to cope and forgive what happened. 

The man played by Sam Worthington is full of despair with the loss of his young daughter and is terribly angry with the situation. He and his daughter are both having difficulty coping. His family is of a Christian faith and are full believers where he is slightly skeptical. He is snow blowing his driveway one afternoon while alone at the house and he receives a letter requesting his presence at the shack where his daughters bloody clothes were found and it is signed Papa (which is his wife’s name for God).  He talks to the priest of his church about what he should do as he was not sure who left the letter as it could have been the killer for all he knew. He decides to go on this journey to the shack. Upon arrival to the woods there is a young man who knows his name,  but is unfamiliar to him. He advises that he is Jesus and they are so delighted that he chose to accept their invitation. He goes into the shack and instead of being run down and falling apart like he remembers it- It is beautiful and warm- no longer winter. God and the Holy Spirit are waiting. God is in the form of a heavy set African American woman and the Holy Spirit appears to be a Native American woman both beautiful. 

She invites the man Sam Worthington in and lets him know they are there to help him heal his wounds. At one point the Holy Spirit invites him into the garden to help her with a task. He enters the garden and he says how wild and messy it is. She explained that it was him. His mind. They enter and she wants to remove this tree that although beautiful is damaging the plants around it. They eventually remove this tree and leave the place empty for the time being. They leave the garden and he ventures off with God to explore Wisdom and Forgiveness. Wisdom shows him why it is that God is a loving and compassionate God, not vengeful or karmic. She explains how God has given every human being a choice and this can (not always) invite evil into our lives. This God loves all humans like they are all his/her children. The man discusses with wisdom how he wants the murderer of his daughter to suffer and be punished for what he did but wisdom explains that it is like him choosing between his children which one he would send to hell. One goes to heaven the other to hell. He unable to make that difficult decision understands why God is not punishing or vengeful it simply happens and God can not intervene because he does not love one more than another even if one makes evil decisions. 

With that new found wisdom he then transitions toward forgiveness. It is a hard thing to be faced with forgiveness. Especially in this circumstance where a man murdered his daughter who was innocent and sweet. God explains that you do not have to be best friends when you forgive someone. It simply means you are no longer torturing yourself. It also does not happen right away. You might have to continuously repeat I forgive you until one day you no longer harbour all of that resentment towards yourself and who you perceive as responsible. With that they return to the garden with his daughters body (which was never found) and they plant her and a new plant that blossoms and radiates beauty. In this way that have removed the thought in his mind that was infecting or damaging other thoughts due to the focus that was placed on that plant. That plant was being nourished while the others were dying and they needed to plant a new thought in order to heal. 

God then states that the man can stay or he can return to his family. He chooses to return and wakes up in a hospital bed. He did not realize that on the way to the shack he was involved in a very serious accident. He then in turn helps his daughter heal and cope with what happened to her younger sister. 

It was an amazing story about love healing and forgiveness. And though I never considered myself a religious person, I have always considered myself spiritual. Even if you don’t necessarily believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit it is still an amazing story on how to heal some deep difficult wounds and move forward in your life. I would recommend it to anyone looking for an awakening of the soul. 

Teachers of yoga

Today was a day of revelations

When I first began my yoga teaching journey I was a shy unfamiliar girl transitioning to one of the biggest learning experiences of my life. I remember that first class that I taught, trembling with an anxious feeling and fear of not being good enough filled my body to the brim. It felt like a cup of water filled right to the top sitting on a very unsturdy table ready to spill everywhere. I now realize those people in the room could feel those vibrations I was radiating. 

To this day I still get nerves, however before each practice I ground myself and imagine my heart radiating pure love out to my students. Every single person that comes my class, I want them to be able to take a piece of love, vibrance and peace with them when they leave. It helps centre their day not only my own. In this way I feel more empowered, and focused while teaching, and this helps me develop my ability to really be a witness t their growth and development. 

You want a teacher fully present in class, one that can fully witness your abilities, make suggestions and compliment when appropriate. They are the gardener who plants the seed, nourishes that seed with their love and wisdom and then watches as it bloom in full radiance. For me I find it important for a teacher to be fully alive and witness the magic happening in the room. You can simply witness transformation happening in front of your very eyes, and it is wonderful

Heart Choices

All of the stages throughout our life we make choices that point us in the direction our life will take. As we grow up we forget that we actually have a choice and despite what others may want from us it is our choice.

I know I most certainly have difficulty with the choice. Sometimes my head says I have to do the intellectual thing, that which makes the most sense and creates stability in life. However my heart often cries in the completely opposite direction telling me to take a chance do whats right for me despite what others believe to be the “right” choice. 

When we continuously ignore our hearts desires and choices we become overloaded by burden of finances or responsability and forget about the other side of the coin. Those choices that fuel our soul and our purpose. We can start to come out of our rut when we begin to ask ourselves what we need. Today I feel like a bath, a massage, a yoga class, and honor  our needs. We begin to honor our hearts 💕 and what they need to stay full of love and energy to help the needs of others and serve our greater purpose. 

In order to know what you need meditation helps connect us to our inner guide or internal wisdom that guides us in the right direction. That brings transformation and growth along for the ride. We sometimes just need to say F everything else for now- this is what I need. Despite circumstances, weather or any other possible obstacles in the way.