Composed like magnets

To nourish oneself with the origins 
To absorb the knowledge of the earth without supplement
Natural, unselfish and bountiful

Generations & evolution altered provisions
Chemically & biologically evident the virus

Metamorphosis in food creates metamorphosis in devourers
more ailments, illness, disease & affliction
where fear is the mastermind.

Realization of our patterns, our why
provides clarity and cures
we mature and flourish

Acceptance & love the path in our journey
obstacles perceived as enlightening rather than misfortunes
we grow, we learn we create

the purpose to choose
potent constructive thoughts
to create influential and inspiring behaviours in ourselves and others

we like a magnet attract similarity,
choose nourishing/loving thoughts &beliefs
and that is what will manifest.

The Sun rises again

Warmth dissipates,
life hushed and serene,
Dormancy, lethargy follow

Still lingers the impressions of scars,
buried just below the surface
As not to disturb.

Time may heal, but not regenerate
Nothing will ever be as it was exactly
Always slight remodeling, as time always moves forward.

Transformation is not instantaneous,
You are not one then the other
always a transition period – a period of in between.

We overcome challenge with persistence,
like a river leaves an impression on the bank,
not an easy task.

Time & movement propel forward
We grasp easy, clear, painless
Avoid existence of wounds.

In between is where we learn,
we develop,
our “flaws” turn into strengths.

We dove into this journey,
with knowledge of transcendence
But progression is imperceptible.

Nearest has difficulty to judge progress
perpetual movement forward inevitable
Happiness is on the horizon.

Transition almost complete
Sun heightens, intensifies
The dawning of a new day.

Bad News Travels Fast

DCIM100GOPROWhen you wake up and receive some really awful news, it definitely does not help you get started on the right foot. I have been trying for almost two years to surface from this feeling of drowning, and today I felt like I was sinking just a little bit further into the depths.

My heart felt like it was being torn apart by ravaging wolves, and I just burst out into tears.

It is almost like every time I receive any kind of bad news this is what happens to me, and I know it is not the most normal response. For the last two years, I have been persevering despite not knowing or understanding exactly what was wrong with me. My parents brought it to my attention after the trauma of 2014.  PTSD became my diagnosis despite only being 26 years old, and probably one of the happiest people you will ever meet. A deep rooted fear creating havoc in my life all this time, and with no end in sight. I have been determined to overcome this obstacle in my life. However when I receive less than favorable news, I tend to feel this overwhelming sense of anger, frustration and above all fear.

So how do I manage that debilitating feeling that accompanies this kind of news? I meditate. Yes it is true, I sit on a cushion in silence. It brings me focused concentration, and answers. I sat today for 20 minutes in silence, focused on my breath and counting inhales/exhales and finally as the meditation came to a close, I imagined myself taking in warm, light radiant energy. This energy filled me, and dissolved my fears, worries, and troubles with each breath. The answers came to me- Go to yoga- go to Moksha, the hot room, where all those magical things happen, and so I did.

The movement of yoga helps my body rid itself of the poison my mind creates with fear, anger and frustration. It builds up in the muscles, and joints and creates pain in my lower back. I knew yoga class will help me work out the muscles in my back and I would feel better, but sometimes when you just can not take any more bad news you want to curl up on the couch, and watch movies all day long, not moving or seeing a single person. This is what I wanted to do when I woke up this morning, but after 60 minutes of present moment-pure bliss, my body felt 100% better.

I am so genuinely grateful for yoga and everything it has given me the last couple years, freedom of pain, love, community, happiness, stress relief, and of course transformation.

 

With focused attention we succeed

I read that quantum physics tells us that when we focus our attention on something we actually change the molecular structure of the object. In simplest terms the observer affects the object by solely observing. This to me is simply a life altering idea. If this is the case, when you do yoga, or mindfulness of any kind, you bring your attention to your thoughts and reasoning behind those thoughts and  you can CHANGE them, by simply devoting a little extra attention to the thoughts. So, that being said, if we continue to see things in one way, one perspective, we will be held in a holding pattern, preventing change. When we release our attachment to an idea, emotion or outcome this helps us develop objectivity, and radiate acceptance for whatever comes our way- this in turn reduces our suffering. When we accept things as they are in each moment, without labeling them as good or bad, positive or negative, etc. we reduce our suffering and create more gratitude.

Can you believe it? I know how I am going to be starting off my year. I want to release my attachments to objects, ideas, people, places, feelings in order to make room for new possibilities, growth and transformation… So here I go IMG_2919.jpg