Importance of choice ‚ú®

Today in therapy I was in deep conversation about trauma and negativity, when I realized I was missing something. 

For a long time I have been so open that I let everything in- good and bad, and it seems as of late everything had been bad or negative. It was forcing negative influence in my own world due to the overwhelming feelings of others. In this world now how could any sane person function by letting every single thing in life touch them in one way or another. While your heart is open and intentions are pure set on helping all of those who need it, you are letting EVERYTHING in. The good fuels you- fills your cup but the “bad” drains you leaving you to feel empty and worn out. Any situation even if not your own, you let in and take from you your prized energy. The only thing that fuels you and like the current draws you forward. 

I have been living life without a shield for most of my life because I thought that it was only a hinderance. I thought that if we have a shield we lose the connection to those people around us because we don’t let their good and bad in. I have witnessed so many others around me who built a wall, strong enough to sustain Fort Knox, and in so doing have cut out the emotional from life. It is as though they themselves have turned to stone, people and events no longer cling to them but instead roll off like rain drops. Not just the things they choose either, things that for others around them mean more to that person than they understand.

I have always prided myself on the ability that I have to put myself fully in the shoes of another. As I try to embrace their ideas and reasons for being who they are. It enables me to understand them on a level deeper than most. This is one of my gifts that I cherish, however it can be draining and a constant flux of negativity if you allow it to be. Instead however of building a wall it should be more like a selective permeable membrane allowing ourselves to choose what we let through. Not stone walling everything. We should fuel the events ideas and people with our concentrated awareness when they enhance our inner light, provide us insight or are helpful in some way. If they are simply negative, critical or self deprecating we refuse to nourish those thoughts. We want to nourish those thoughts, feelings and behaviours that help us flourish and find success. Our thoughts are very much like our garden. When we want our flowers to grow we give them the optimum space with sunlight, feed them with attention, and water and watch them flourish. Same can be said for our mind- nourish the thoughts that you want and starve the ones you don’t. This is our selective permeable membrane. This is where we make the concious choice to chose energizing, fueling, loving, happy thoughts even through challenge and difficulty. 

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The Lake

Warm sunshine beats down on her skin, filling her up with warm light energy. Her internal cup slowly begins to fill, energy awakens within. As she begins to run through the field her feet beat down on the long gras rhythmically, her handsbrush through the long grass and particles float into the air. The smell of freshly cut grass fills her nose with pleasure. A cool refreshing breeze, flows through her hair and sweeps across her neck sending a gentle shiver down her spine. Sights set on the lake up ahead, she runs a little faster. At the edge of the lake she plops herself down onto a rock close enough to dip her toes into the shallow water. She gazes at the mirror like quality of the lake, simple experience of tranquility at the waters edge. Dazzling at natures beauty in one of its most natural forms, she has no worries or fears, aware of all that is present. Her breath slows, and deepens as she finds the same tranquility within her own self.

Love &support is a hidden gem

where_there_is_love_quote_mahatma_gandhi_yogaShe was undeniably compassionate- almost excessively. When others require ample amounts of attention due to their difficulties, or obstacles she always lent an open ear. One that would be understanding, and also ease some of their burden. This constant attack on her energy left her empty, and drained. Void of all energy, unable to recover herself, the need of her assistance still prevalent, to help ease the burden of others.

Her heart simply felt as though it was imploding unable to help others, to be sympathetic or even understanding. She wanted to feel normal, and able to provide her full love and heart to others. Her purpose could not be fulfilled without her vibrancy or sparkle. Unconscious to the fact that she was hurt and needed the warmth, love and tenderness that she had once provided others.

We always find solace in talking to others, to become aware that we are not alone. We are not the only one’s who may be struggling along our path. It takes persistence to achieve success. We may fail 757 times but the 758 might lead to our success. This is why we figure out what it is we are meant to do and persevere no matter how many times we must fall down. When we show others our failures, they are able to compare with their own lives and help provide us with comfort and reassurance, that nothing great is achieved without difficulty. She was having difficulty finding the reassurance she needed to proceed and develop her inner strength. Her explanation of her sentiments was too difficult to fully share, and unload onto the shoulders of others. She dug deep inside and buried them. The hole became overflowing with memories that were overly agonizing, and too damaging to share with others who were oblivious to her truth. It was an ongoing internal battle until she found the missing element.

A space and supportive community that inspire greatness, develop character, grow inner strength, and enhance qualities that already reside within each and everyone who simply show up. They simply show up and remain open in heart and mind to the experiences and knowledge of others. A place to share energy, and transform dark into light. To grow both inside and out. It is a place that has a magic quality within its walls that illuminates even the darkest of places. We tap into awareness with breath, tranquility in stillness and find roots in the present moment happiness that can be ours if we simply let go.

Although she still has the overwhelm that first tried to drag her under, she has developed the muscles she needs and found a support system to help her battle the swells within. She no longer has to feel alone, depleted and without.

Pitta Dosha 

Time for some tea this morning! 

My dosha is Pitta – which is all about ūüĒ• fire. 

There characteristics are as follows: 

They have excellent digestion, warm body temperature, sleep soundly for short periods. When pitta is in balance those types will have lustruous complexion, perfect digestion, strong apetite and abundant energy. The have powerful intellect, strong ability to concentrate, when in balance they are good decision makers, teachers and speakers. They are sharp witted, direct and out spoken.

When out of balance

When out of balance, Pittas may suffer from certain physical syptoms like skin rashes, burning sensations, peptic ulcers, excessive body heat, heartburn, and indigestion. Emotionally They can be short-tempered and argumentative. 

Good ways to stay in balance:

1. Balance your rest and activity. Let yourself have some free time, dont make time pressures for yourself. Remember don’t always be on the go. Balance rest and relaxation with work and exercise. 

2.Don’t skip meals- eat when you are hungry but do not wait until you are famished. Find a good in between, when you start to feel hungry have a litlle something. You also dont want to feel FULL to the top. 

3. Eat sweet bitter astringent foods like cucumbers, sweet fruits and melons (grapes, melons, cherries, coconuts, avocados, mangoes, pomegranates, fully ripe pineapples, oranges, and plums ). For veggies asparagus, cucumbers, potatoes, sweet potatoes, green leafy vegetables, pumpkins, broccoli, cauliflower, celery, okra, lettuce, green beans, and zucchini. Olive, sunflower and coconut oils are best used for cooking and cool spices, which include coriander, cilantro, cardamom, saffron, and fennel.

4. Spend time in nature- whether you take walks in the woods or bring nature inside with flowers in home and office. Nature helps balance a little bit of everything because of its grounding ability.

5. Daily massage with cool oils.

6. Blue green and silver in your environments as well as the clothes you wear will help to cool your internal fire. 

7. LAUGH A LOT  this is good for everyone! 

8. Choose cool scents such as sandalwood, rose, jasmine, mint, lavender, fennel, and chamomile are recommended options.

Waves Of Tranquility

Turquoise, aqua, azure, cobalt, sapphire
From depth to surface
Indistinguishable, interchanging
Flow of colour

Ever changing, immense, power
Always moving
Transforming
Forceful, influential, vigorous swells take you over and under

Witness the intertwining of souls below
Mingle, dance and express life
Beauty, serenity
Found under the natural movement of rapids

The peaks roll forward
And conceal the sand
As they turn into valleys.
Then as quickly as they approached, retreat.

Overwhelming sense of calm
Watch the shift
The gust of air flows past
The roar of the ocean

In silence
We find tranquility
Through repetition
We find peace

Acceptance limits suffering

I have always assumed that my yoga practice was separate from my life. Pretended it was a place to literally forget about everything and hide, shadow myself from the rest of existence.

In some ways it is true, you do forget about the rest of the world, responsibilities, and pressures as you step into presence.  You walk into this place that simply asks you to be with what is happening in the moment. I with every molecule of my being considered running away from everything, as it would be easier that way, but no I stayed. My desire was not to run anymore, to stay and devise a plan to limit suffering. To stay in the  moment is easier said than done in most cases, but with time it came to be easier. We do find a relief from the stress in our life through the practice. For those 60 minutes we experience bliss. Not bliss in the sense that there is nothing challenging us, no obstacles to overcome because that would be wrong. We find bliss in the experience of letting everything else go that will not serve the moment we are currently in. Why experience worries of the future, right now? It simply washes away our focus, and sense of calm with one big wave of emotion.

Through yoga practice we learn to face fear, overcome challenge, and build confidence in ourselves. We face the fear of falling, we overcome the challenge of your mind, and realize we are capable of much more than we give ourselves credit for. Each asana (a.k.a pose) is designed to release the body in some way through stretch or strengthening. The stories we tell ourselves start to expand from pose to pose, you aren’t good enough, flexible enough- “i mean jeeze look at that girl over there she can practically touch her head to the floor.” “Oh the teachers looking at me I better deepen the pose to show her how flexible or strong I am.” In Warrior 2 for instance my shoulders tend to get tired and I want to drop my arms so badly. Sometimes I choose mindfully to release the tension, other days I practice to push through the sensation. Why would you push yourself through the sensation of your arms burning? Well because just like in life it is a challenge and if we always decide to drop our arms because they are tired, we never develop our strength, and never learn to find comfort through difficulty. We are essentially just running away.

When I first began practicing yoga I would always move away from sensation. My legs are tired- oh I will just straighten them. My arms are tired- oh I will just put them on my hips.  I think you get the picture. However it is through discomfort or challenge that we learn to find comfort that we learn to face the challenge and develop our inner strength- that is when magic happens. We realize our tendencies, mine simply to run away.

What is this magic? Well it’s awareness, it’s knowledge, and it’s presence. To be fully aware and conscious with the choices we make and why we make them. Most of us live our daily lives unconsciously. Thoughts and choices presented to us, and usually we shy away from the options that we deem negative or we do not particularly like. When we really love something we fully immerse ourselves in it, almost getting lost, and when we don’t we tend to run away. If we detach ourselves from results we limit suffering. Instead of clinging to the outcome we desire, simply let everything fall into place the way it is supposed to. This does not mean stop trying to achieve goals, it means accept all situations/people that present themselves, they are an opportunity along our path. They are presented to us as either a gift or for growth. They may be the support we need when we need it, or maybe they are our challenge that brings with it, magic. Either way they are a blessing.

 

 

Magic Can Happen

There are so many people all over the world who have so much to say, they can contribute their voice on a monumental scale. With clarity in their mind and power in their voice they move mountains, influence others to act. Is it solely the conviction in their voice or is it something else- do we recognize ourselves in them- all we need is a little confidence and to connect our mind to our heart?

There are so many people who say they have confidence, but you look at them and their body language tells a completely different story. With shrugged shoulders, and no eye contact you know confidence is not among their strengths. As a person with deficit in that area it can be hard to find that inner strength or voice that can lead you to develop your voice and confidence. I accept that I am not perfect, nor will I ever be but there is a plan. Someone or something out there is looking out for me and things happen for a reason, there is always a reason things unfold the way they do whether it is as a blessing or a lesson we are given what we need in each moment, to propel us forward to dive deeper gain more insight, and move forward on our path. We do take breaks in our journey, to eat, drink, use the bathroom, stop and simply enjoy the view but life is not about staying stagnant and unmoving, it is about constantly learning and growing. When we learn to accept this, we learn to harness our inner power. Our inner power is the same energy that powers the Divine or Universe if you so choose. When you realize this, you know that you have extraordinary and unlimited power.

It is a power that resides within you, and everyone else on this planet- we are all one. We may all look very different, sound different, act different we all have that same potential inside of us that we can harness if we so choose. When we harness this potential this is when magic can happen.

Composed like magnets

To nourish oneself with the origins 
To absorb the knowledge of the earth without supplement
Natural, unselfish and bountiful

Generations & evolution altered provisions
Chemically & biologically evident the virus

Metamorphosis in food creates metamorphosis in devourers
more ailments, illness, disease & affliction
where fear is the mastermind.

Realization of our patterns, our why
provides clarity and cures
we mature and flourish

Acceptance & love the path in our journey
obstacles perceived as enlightening rather than misfortunes
we grow, we learn we create

the purpose to choose
potent constructive thoughts
to create influential and inspiring behaviours in ourselves and others

we like a magnet attract similarity,
choose nourishing/loving thoughts &beliefs
and that is what will manifest.

Patience & Bravery 

From deep within the dark corridor
You begin to hear the howling
The sound of fear strengthens
Breath quickens with distress.

Heart beat expands to neck and fingertips
Emotions flood in and take over
Anger being the first to surface
rage fills and devours you into darkness.

Current thoughts and events fill the mind
like a cloud cover
But body reacts like upheaval repeats
to drag you back under

Delayed awareness infiltrates mind
After reaction and emotions manifest
Too late to withdraw
All that’s left is to recognize and acknowledge

Apologies, acceptance and wisdom follow exposure
Transcendence unavoidable
The time will come
Patience and bravery will deliver attainment