Where the light is brightest, the shadows are deepest
Turquoise, aqua, azure, cobalt, sapphire
From depth to surface
Flow of colour
Ever changing, immense, power
Forceful, influential, vigorous swells take you over and under
Witness the intertwining of souls below
Mingle, dance and express life
Found under the natural movement of rapids
The peaks roll forward
And conceal the sand
As they turn into valleys.
Then as quickly as they approached, retreat.
Overwhelming sense of calm
Watch the shift
The gust of air flows past
The roar of the ocean
We find tranquility
We find peace
I have always assumed that my yoga practice was separate from my life. Pretended it was a place to literally forget about everything and hide, shadow myself from the rest of existence.
In some ways it is true, you do forget about the rest of the world, responsibilities, and pressures as you step into presence. You walk into this place that simply asks you to be with what is happening in the moment. I with every molecule of my being considered running away from everything, as it would be easier that way, but no I stayed. My desire was not to run anymore, to stay and devise a plan to limit suffering. To stay in the moment is easier said than done in most cases, but with time it came to be easier. We do find a relief from the stress in our life through the practice. For those 60 minutes we experience bliss. Not bliss in the sense that there is nothing challenging us, no obstacles to overcome because that would be wrong. We find bliss in the experience of letting everything else go that will not serve the moment we are currently in. Why experience worries of the future, right now? It simply washes away our focus, and sense of calm with one big wave of emotion.
Through yoga practice we learn to face fear, overcome challenge, and build confidence in ourselves. We face the fear of falling, we overcome the challenge of your mind, and realize we are capable of much more than we give ourselves credit for. Each asana (a.k.a pose) is designed to release the body in some way through stretch or strengthening. The stories we tell ourselves start to expand from pose to pose, you aren’t good enough, flexible enough- “i mean jeeze look at that girl over there she can practically touch her head to the floor.” “Oh the teachers looking at me I better deepen the pose to show her how flexible or strong I am.” In Warrior 2 for instance my shoulders tend to get tired and I want to drop my arms so badly. Sometimes I choose mindfully to release the tension, other days I practice to push through the sensation. Why would you push yourself through the sensation of your arms burning? Well because just like in life it is a challenge and if we always decide to drop our arms because they are tired, we never develop our strength, and never learn to find comfort through difficulty. We are essentially just running away.
When I first began practicing yoga I would always move away from sensation. My legs are tired- oh I will just straighten them. My arms are tired- oh I will just put them on my hips. I think you get the picture. However it is through discomfort or challenge that we learn to find comfort that we learn to face the challenge and develop our inner strength- that is when magic happens. We realize our tendencies, mine simply to run away.
What is this magic? Well it’s awareness, it’s knowledge, and it’s presence. To be fully aware and conscious with the choices we make and why we make them. Most of us live our daily lives unconsciously. Thoughts and choices presented to us, and usually we shy away from the options that we deem negative or we do not particularly like. When we really love something we fully immerse ourselves in it, almost getting lost, and when we don’t we tend to run away. If we detach ourselves from results we limit suffering. Instead of clinging to the outcome we desire, simply let everything fall into place the way it is supposed to. This does not mean stop trying to achieve goals, it means accept all situations/people that present themselves, they are an opportunity along our path. They are presented to us as either a gift or for growth. They may be the support we need when we need it, or maybe they are our challenge that brings with it, magic. Either way they are a blessing.
There are so many people all over the world who have so much to say, they can contribute their voice on a monumental scale. With clarity in their mind and power in their voice they move mountains, influence others to act. Is it solely the conviction in their voice or is it something else- do we recognize ourselves in them- all we need is a little confidence and to connect our mind to our heart?
There are so many people who say they have confidence, but you look at them and their body language tells a completely different story. With shrugged shoulders, and no eye contact you know confidence is not among their strengths. As a person with deficit in that area it can be hard to find that inner strength or voice that can lead you to develop your voice and confidence. I accept that I am not perfect, nor will I ever be but there is a plan. Someone or something out there is looking out for me and things happen for a reason, there is always a reason things unfold the way they do whether it is as a blessing or a lesson we are given what we need in each moment, to propel us forward to dive deeper gain more insight, and move forward on our path. We do take breaks in our journey, to eat, drink, use the bathroom, stop and simply enjoy the view but life is not about staying stagnant and unmoving, it is about constantly learning and growing. When we learn to accept this, we learn to harness our inner power. Our inner power is the same energy that powers the Divine or Universe if you so choose. When you realize this, you know that you have extraordinary and unlimited power.
It is a power that resides within you, and everyone else on this planet- we are all one. We may all look very different, sound different, act different we all have that same potential inside of us that we can harness if we so choose. When we harness this potential this is when magic can happen.
To nourish oneself with the origins
To absorb the knowledge of the earth without supplement
Natural, unselfish and bountiful
Generations & evolution altered provisions
Chemically & biologically evident the virus
Metamorphosis in food creates metamorphosis in devourers
more ailments, illness, disease & affliction
where fear is the mastermind.
Realization of our patterns, our why
provides clarity and cures
we mature and flourish
Acceptance & love the path in our journey
obstacles perceived as enlightening rather than misfortunes
we grow, we learn we create
the purpose to choose
potent constructive thoughts
to create influential and inspiring behaviours in ourselves and others
we like a magnet attract similarity,
choose nourishing/loving thoughts &beliefs
and that is what will manifest.
From deep within the dark corridor
You begin to hear the howling
The sound of fear strengthens
Breath quickens with distress.
Heart beat expands to neck and fingertips
Emotions flood in and take over
Anger being the first to surface
rage fills and devours you into darkness.
Current thoughts and events fill the mind
like a cloud cover
But body reacts like upheaval repeats
to drag you back under
Delayed awareness infiltrates mind
After reaction and emotions manifest
Too late to withdraw
All that’s left is to recognize and acknowledge
Apologies, acceptance and wisdom follow exposure
The time will come
Patience and bravery will deliver attainment
life hushed and serene,
Dormancy, lethargy follow
Still lingers the impressions of scars,
buried just below the surface
As not to disturb.
Time may heal, but not regenerate
Nothing will ever be as it was exactly
Always slight remodeling, as time always moves forward.
Transformation is not instantaneous,
You are not one then the other
always a transition period – a period of in between.
We overcome challenge with persistence,
like a river leaves an impression on the bank,
not an easy task.
Time & movement propel forward
We grasp easy, clear, painless
Avoid existence of wounds.
In between is where we learn,
our “flaws” turn into strengths.
We dove into this journey,
with knowledge of transcendence
But progression is imperceptible.
Nearest has difficulty to judge progress
perpetual movement forward inevitable
Happiness is on the horizon.
Transition almost complete
Sun heightens, intensifies
The dawning of a new day.